Every day before and after work....

That was like getting hit with a good right-hand, back in school. I was a tuff kid, but once a friend hit me so hard I flew into a wall. I guess I finally came off of it only to get another left, right combo. Just as I learned then, it’s not getting smacked, it’s how you respond and get up that demands the outcome. I don’t want to feel that ever again. I could feel my ancestry, my body became so heavy. Chills ran threw out my soul. The temple became very cold, our skin formed bumps all over it. All the hair on our temple stood up. If I had any hair on my head, I would have looked like my old nickname back in the day. They called me Buckwheat off the Little Rascals. I never had hair cuts, and my hair went everywhere but down. It was just a big poof.

I know we can be working harder. I know we can be expressing more to the world. I know we could be doing more for people if we just tried harder. I live in fear of who I was or what I’ve done yet the proof is in the pudding, for sure. Even with that, we still feel the burn at times of choices we have made. How they have affected others, our didn’t affect them. It’s tough for us. As for if the pudding is good or not, I could have done things better. With that, I will say growth comes in many forms, and we have accepted our choices. Now why not grow? I mean really what’s left. 

One more quote if I may, say from a great speaker and his videos, “To get something you never had. You have to do something you have never did.” In my new book, This Is Why You Think I Am Crazy,  I regret not putting something I was told to do into the book. Why I didn’t is because I wanted to push through and thought I would want to write another book in the future. That is not the case any longer. I feel I can blog and express oneself just as well. With that in our book, we made reference to the book of Revelations and what we think went down with the truth that we do know. However, we are definitely living in the clay of the statue. Except our version is a little different, and we feel that will show the power of our father, God, and how gracious he is. Not to mention, how smart and what amazing lessons we could all learn from father. 

There is a trail in Revelations that is like a timeline. One exception is there is something that even though I love our father, I feel has been twisted like a riddle to a point. Remember, the Bible was written by a man. Just like they say, I’m only a man. That is true with my temple, as we are all flesh to walk on Earth. My soul is not of the flesh, nor is yours. My soul is very old and has been looking for forgiveness from father for a very long time. The moment we left was the moment we knew we made a mistake. As we spoke we are only a man, so I am sure I make mistakes, so did the man that wrote our great book. For man to make a mistake is only human. The only way for growth is to make a mistake and learn, right? Or once again I am just some crazy old fool or maybe a clown, a joke that is just mad, right? A crazy man that can’t let the past die. A man that holds on to the past to justify a life gone so wrong in so many ways. It really makes no sense at all. Yet in other ways that does make sense.

It has all been a ride. Maybe if by telling others about what we have found and believe, we can help ourself grow and help many find God in a different way. Most likely, I will bet on the batshit crazy placement. On that, it is time to end fear. The next blog will begin what we have found, for better or worse. A guy said to me once, “He always wanted to play ball with me growing up.” The pick-up game is on bros. I do not want my ancestors or our father to ask me why was I afraid to express myself. Nah, let’s go, let’s roll. I appreciate your time. Peace.